What if you're not ready?
What if you don't want to be set?
But you're supposed to be,
So reluctantly you do it anyway

But why?

If it's not for you, then it's for them.
Except, it's not

Don't you get tired?
Don't you just want to leave?
Not because of anything they did
The hurtful things they said,
You're stronger than that

Yet you still want to leave

The worst feeling is you can't figure it out, why you want to go
When everything in your life seems
to be going perfectly

But you're still not happy,
And it's not your fault

So why do I run, you ask?
I seek perfection and nothing
at the same time
I just run because that's what I know

I don't think I'm scared of anything
And it's not because I don't love you
I run away for me
Me and only me

I don't know if I'll ever stop
I imagine it would be nice
To let people back into my life again
But I'm not ready for that yet

You running along beside me
does not bring me comfort
Rather, it's the exact opposite
I am the most okay with myself
when I am unsure what is ahead

Running, running, still running
Everything I am, was, depended on,
knew, loved, hoped for, dreamed
All fading fast behind me

And yet I keep running,
All because I'm not ready,
nor do I want to ever be set,

I just wish to forget it all
and you with it