I feel like I am suffocating, the world is closing in around me. I feel only fear and paranoia! I just want to be outside, I can't stand closed in spaces or people close in around me. I walk everywhere or ride a bike, even when it is bitter cold. No one seems to understand me. They just tell me it is a phase. I can't ever seem to smile and what I like doesn't make sense to others. I like quiet places where the noise doesn't confuse me. I want to be liked and to have friends, but there are few people like me. All they want to do is take me to doctors, and all they want is to medicate me. I just want someone to understand that this is my normal, at least it is for me. I know what I am doing, I just have to do it in my own way. I don't like getting upset, but I get frustrated when people want to change me. I just wish they would stop crowding me so I can just breathe.