As if summoned by the moon light Snow covering the ground I looked out my window that night There you were, drunk Drunk and motioning for me.
I remember the way you turned away, stopped In your tracks, the moment I appeared Red velvet jacket, long hair Glistening free eyes You couldn't even look at me.
You told me on your journey here You thought of all the mean things All the things that made you angry That you wanted to say But the moment you saw me None of it mattered.
"I'm unhappy. I'm not happy." Your voice echoing through technological devices While I hid in the corner of another man's bathroom It was then I knew I had to see you. "I ******* hate...I ******* hate talking to you." "Why?" "You know why."
You said. A few hours later, I was the first to reach out Kiss you on the lips This afternoon I replayed the whole thing in my head Allowing myself to befriend the way you haunt me Day to day, but at least At least I have the satisfying comfort of knowing I'm always on your mind.
Sometimes I become so paranoid Creating the worst fantasies in my mind As my room mate and I casually carried two wedding dresses Two new purchases, down the streets of Chicago Actor guy just invited me over I don't think I'll end up going Tonight.
Theres this funny thing about the way my mind works With you. If I have it in my head, that its you I will see If I even play with the idea of hanging out with you I can't muster up the will power To surround myself with Other.. Distractions.
But I know, at the end of it all As the credits are rolling You said it so well that night "You don't even get it." You said. "You don't even get it. Because I love you. I love you. And I just am still coping with not being that man for you." You said.
And maybe I'm the room mate alone tonight As I hear foot steps scurrying to go Gain comfort from this or that But there isn't a looming clock above my head There aren't men disappearing I'm not running out of time Or beauty Or love Or wit Or art I am constantly evolving.