I don't know what to say, choked up on words trying to understand what your going though
when your in pain, my knees ache as you describe
the horror you face everyday.

things have changed
more than I can explain.

My life is like a 1000 piece puzzle
when i'm asked to describe it
I have to put each piece exactly where it fits
for the main picture to come together

This isn't an ordinary puzzle
it has 7 extra pieces
no boarder
and the picture is a swirling mass of
black, grays, and whites.

things have changed
so much it makes me sad
just to explain

from one poison to another
alcohol to chemotherapy  
your days changed from
hangovers to hanging on for dear life

I watch you nod in and out of sleep
all day long
lay in your bed, silent
with the background of cartoons
you reached your hand out
I lay mind on top of it
and you squeeze

you open your eyes
and look at me
"I know your here, i love you"
as he says laying his head back down on his pillow
closing his eyes, back to sleep