Can't stop picking at my neck
Fireball eyes, you pecked my cheek
Like it was the last time of all the times
I look at you and I think
Why do I care?

Sun is shining bright
Sometimes I think you would be relieved
If I disappeared
With my palette of paints,
Sass, and white inner thighs.

Wednesday. We drown our thoughts of each other
But thank God, it didn't go further I think
I wish I could describe, write it all out
Paint with my fingertips just how I wish
I could
Be better about letting go.

Blue and gray text messages
Poetics phrases
How can I help you?
How can we make this work?
You push and you shove
Staring into your phone
It would be easier if I just backed off
But you are too scared to say.

Coffee upon coffee
Delayed answers, avoiding the truth
Red dress, I'll be gone for 3 weeks
Releasing new art and freedom
Into the bright sky
I say I'm sorry
I say sit next to me
I say give me a call
I am here cleaning and sprucing up
The destruction on my own.


I forgot to finish this poem.
But I came back to it now probably about
5 maybe 6 hours later
Honesty can be such a beautiful thing.
All will be well.