I smile
But not due to cheer.
I smile
To hide my fear.

I hope never to make the same mistake again.
Living with the knowledge that I am no farther away from him.
Him being the me that I once was.
I see him in the mirror,
I hear his voice when I speak.
We even have the same mannerism
When we lay our head
Or sit down to eat.
I can run but it never will far.
He's my shadows
He's always there
Somewhat like a childhood scar.
I can tear and I can scratch
But my scars only remain after that.
Daily trials seem to feed his purpose
But newfound wisdom defeats his resurface

I am stronger than you