the last time i saw you i was crying my eyes out

i had been avoiding you for a week
you told me you wouldn't let me go
you snuck me into your room
you held me
you dried my tears
you told me you wouldn't let go
i fell asleep by your side for the hundredth time
(i need to start leaving a toothbrush in your room)
you held me like you would never let me go
i laid there and remembered when you
spilled your heart out to me as we choked down alcohol
i laid there and hoped you really would never let me go
i woke up before you
(you were so cute when you slept)
i kissed you on the cheek
i left as if nothing happened
as if i didn't lay there
noticing our synchronized breathing,
your legs intertwined with mine,
your eyelashes fluttering against my cheek,
your pounding heartbeat

i had never felt more alive

please never let me go