it's the way that seeing a picture of you
makes my heart skip a beat and
a small smile crawls on my lips
without my consent

it's the way i think of you when I listen
to Winter Lady on repeat for hours
with no one on my mind but you
for hours

it's the way i close myself off to you when
you've been ignoring my messages
and don't tell me who you were with
or what you were doing

it's the way it becomes hard to breathe
when I read a goodbye post on Instagram
because I fear that i'll get that message
from you

it's a lot of things that make me sad these days
it's a lot that makes me cry lately
i'm an emotional wreck that no one
can love