Every so often I would just stare at our cat just to check if she's breathing' because I am afraid it will suddenly stop.
For almost four years never did I cease to believe in you and our hope and dreams because I trusted you I loved you You love me but you suddenly stopped.
And so I observe the rising and falling of our cat's puny body while she sleeps I never wanted to leave things to fate again.
Every night I lie awake and stare at the making and becoming of us in these old videos while you probably sleep. This melancholy and emptiness is something I leave to fate.