Laying here my day feels so surreal how I held you hands length away and in between our intertwined hands you signaled the words I love you. One, two, three and the words gushed from your body into mine and its like I'm on a magic carpet ride, and I can see why Aladdin wanted to show jasmine a whole new world because with you that's what I want to do. I can be like the beast to show you how to love the past I hold inside as long as I can be taught how to be gentle and care. I have lived so long without feeling that this here seems like a mere dream. Being with you I can finally feel again. Feel the spark of my will to live come back, you see that story I told from two years ago was where I lost the will to move, to breathe. I put the burden on the shoulders of the parents sworn into  protecting me. But I promise seeing you smile jump starts my heart back to where I want to live. You do not care whether I am her who really feels like him, you shrug and say "I will love you because your you , not for the parts on your body that you use" I can't help but smile and its been so long since I felt the sun shine on my face even when outside its so much colder than your warm inviting arms. So let's take this slow I'll open your doors tell you how amazing I believe you are. Because you really are amazing. I'll make sure to do this right if you just promise I won't have to wake up from this wonderful dream.