I won't apologize For standing my ground For the first time all these years I will say I'm sorry I expected more That I assumed you would Actually fight for me We were suppose to marry And we were suppose to hold Little spence or serenity Suppose to argue over Santa and the tooth fairy Somehow we lost it all All that's left is the duffle bag In what was our room In the end I missed you Because you had checked out 6 months prior to leaving Slowly we died Our dreams melted away And I stood in the puddle of it You stopped calling me beautiful Started insulting the way I dressed You stopped kissing me And got angry when I asked You stopped making love And wondered why I cried You stared at the television As you thrusted into me Emotionaless Did you love me then? Do you now? Because even though I hate what happened What we became I still remember The day we ditched school With no money And explored And I was freezing So you offered me your leather jacket That was always too small for me I remember kissing in snow Rain And sunshine I remember the way you wanted me The hunger in your eyes all consuming I remember the way You held me The way you laughed And dreamed of fatherhood I remember us in love And I wonder How could something We fought so long for Suddenly not work How could you hold me That night Only to wake up And leave me How could you leave me When all my life I have asked for you to stay.