And this was it. They never knew it but ****** was his favorite topic, heart break was his biggest fear and anger was his only escape. Losing himself just became a regular thing, at least he thought so but the thing was is he was never there to begin with. How can you lose something that doesn't belong to you, in this since her love was never real at all and all he ever had was his loneliness. Surrounded by clouds of darkness god wouldn't dare to  form himself,only able to consult demons cause the angels hated the color red. He lived in the color red, loved in the color red,everything, red. His mom red, his new girlfriend red, his brother red, his future red. It seemed his destiny was red,he seen his ex for the last time.He whispered into her ear "it's you it's always been you ",and that was it , that's when he dropped the knife. Suddenly red faded to black, the words I love you were never to be heard by this boy again .She was the end of his blood lust, he was the end of himself.