Pick up your pride girl. Stop letting your mind and your emotions take hold. Keep your mouth shut and sit up like you should and don't let him touch you- not even a kiss and God forbid you drop that aspirin from between your knees. That purity ring burns you like fire, its silver melts in the palm of your hand. Why would you promise something you can't keep? But if you're going to break a promise break it big. Let him use you, ask him to steal that ring right off your finger. Maybe then and only then you'll feel like you actually meant something at all. That love isn't love, child At least, it isn't love to him but you'll go to hell anyway or, that's what they say so it doesn't quite matter how it makes you feel- apparently we all burn in the end. So put down your pride, girl. Go let your mind and emotions take hold but still shut your mouth and sit up like you should yet, go- let him touch you go give him a kiss. Don't worry 'bout that aspirin it's on the floor now and your promise is broken- you can't take it back. So, I wish you luck with your new name- ****.