The clocks stopped ticking a long time ago
Now you don't even say hello
I pass by every now and then
You just ignore me
I look back and smile at the friends we were.
But those memories are just a blur
I wish one day you'd blow the dust off the VHS tape
like a rusty unused fire escape
I'm forgotten
Forgotten and destined to fade away l
I know it's only in black and white
But the only memory you have of me is that terrible day
All I want to do is scream you're wrong
That's not what happened
You can't just remember that
You
Can't
The last I love you
The first goodbye
The one I'm always trying to please
Why can't I let you go
Why can't I forget about you
You left
You left me alone
Cold
Nothingness
Trying to climb out but the walls are smooth as steel and slippery as oils
All i do is sit in that hole of cold dark hate and think
I still love you
No matter what, I will still
Love
You
Because to me
You were a saint
You could do no wrong
Even though everything you did
Was awful
You were a monster
I knew what you were but I put on a blindfold and tried to wish it away.
I knew what you did but I didn't want to believe it
I still loved you
I was unhappy but you were
So that's all that mattered right
Then you left as quickly as the sweet nothings would drip from your mouth
You were gone and I was a torn rag of what I once was
I can still hear your voice
Softly whispering you can't do this
You won't come back
So I hid my real self to keep you here
But even if you leave me
I can't hate you
I loved you too much
More than I could give
And it broke me
And you just wanted more