I know my scars hurt you
and Suicide is Selfishness
I know when my energy transfers
you feel only pain and anger

But even worse than the destruction
I've done to my skin
and my veins
is the rot I've spurred inside

But today I am making
You a Promise
I Refuse to Decay
masochism will no longer be
my Only Friend

and I will not be Perfect
and pain will remain
a Constant Companion

But I am applying Tourniquets
the mass ocean of blood
will soon slow to
an Occasional trickle
and medication will be given
only PRN
and sometimes I may go for a walk
and Smile
at Nature and God

I'm not saying I am changed
I am simply trying
to grow
so please, just be Patient
just be Kind