My emotions make my writing
messy
I mean so much more than I say.
I wish I could
               put a dictionary next to
               my heart and let
               my breaths write the
               feelings into the walls
               of my body
               because my tongue
               can't etch the words
               into the air.
It all slips through my teeth like
     slimy water.
I can feel and understand what I'm
     doing and trying to convey
but my words just aren't enough.
My voice fails to show how I really
am, who I really am.
I want to awe, and inspire
     but I'm stuck on the other side of that.
Always amazed, but never amazing.
I didn't lose my voice,
                I just never had one.