Written August 13, 2015
"I am trapped inside a black box
Four walls consume me and I can't comprehend how the locks work
I am too far down to even reach the key
And these black walls that are towering over me are deep and scary
Yet I am comforted by them in so many ways
For these are the walls that are familiar to me
It feels like I am running in a never ending race, the gun continuously fires as I keep going losing my breath and wanting so badly to be done
But it keeps chasing me down like a bad dream coming back
I can't escape this pain.
I cannot escape this mix between reality and anxiety
Depression stands for many things but one thing they don't teach you in school
One thing mothers don't teach their kids
One thing boys aren't told by their dads is how to treat a girl right
How not to spend one night with her and tell her everything is alright when it's not
The ABCs are more complex then you think
*******
Betrayal
Cause of
Depression.
these black walls seem to be inching closer in getting smaller and making me become more at home
What would happen if I tried to harm myself?
Who would care?"