I felt shameful
when I look into the mirror and
All I saw was a fat cow
No pills, no potion could cure my shame
No dieting plan, no journal
I felt so shameful that I was willing
To go to the extent to damage my body because I didn't care enough
I didn't love myself, I didn't love myself enough to respect myself
So I would binge eat, and then I'll fast
I would throw up just to be perfect weight
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