How much self hate
does it take?
to take that razor
and slice open your skin

How much self hate
does it take
to be desperate
for the end

how much slef hate
does it take
to want to take
your last breath

how much
does it take
from your soul
every time
that blades brakes the surface
of your beautiful skin

How much
does it take
to walk around
acting fine
when really
your head is pounding
your hands are shaking
eyes are tired
from loss of sleep.

How much
does it take
to close your eyes
and finally sleep?