How do I begin. Where do I start. Everyone is pulling me in all directions and causing me to go crazy. I need a new life outside of his death. I can't function with this. I can't begin because I'll push everyone away. Help me figure out how I can mourn without causing everyone to turn their backs on me. I can't release my anger and hurt and sadness. Not without losing everyone. How can I figure out how to begin if I've already begin. How can I learn to move on if I can't walk toward