what I needed for seven years after I broke the mirror was not electricity, not a word from my kinfolks, not water or a dry place to sleep. Food and cigarettes were needed but gave way if they got in the way of me getting high. All I needed then was another imagining I was getting high. As I peeped through foil curtains and waited impatiently when the buzz wore off for the next hit to knock on my door. I am surprised now by how I ever made it here, looking back at how I was a total mess. How a few good people saw me as potentially good. I don't know how they and me made it through.