It's raining. Best time to be critical and write a post/journal which I'll put later^^. Been reading works of smart mouths from several decades back and seeing history unfold in poetry. It is an exciting thing but my mom is starting to notice that I am isolating again so she's making me do all sorts of things. She's afraid of me thinking too much. To be honest, my dark thoughts rarely visit now(just anxiety and being afraid )  tho I still can't say I won't crash anytime. I want to be away from people so I can absorb what I have read and it is impossible when my siblings always ask me to play with them >.<.