I thought of you today
And you weren't there
And I'm prouder then ever
More concerned about the party life
The party style
Can't settle down
Cause you'd rather live so wild
It's been 4 months
I know it's not long but it's still awhile
I feel a lot better I even smile

I needed you today
And you aren't here
Almost don't wanna wake  
If it's another day like today
I miss our silly talks
And all the jokes we used to crack
I know this probably isn't what you wanna hear
But I'm done putting my life at stake
No more bowls
No more hot rails
No more time wasted thinking you care
No more doing self harm
Cuz I know in the end you aren't really there