I always find starting things harder than finishing them
because everyone tells me first impressions mean everything
and whenever I introduce myself I almost always begin
by telling people I'm yours.
You could tell me you don't want to see me ever again
and I'd admire you for showing me that I can still survive
even though I've been holding my breath since the last time I saw you.
For a minute there we were one person.  
They say there's a time and place for everything,
but for us the times never changed and we had gone to every place imaginable.
Maybe we should have called it quits the minute you forgot how I take my coffee.
Maybe I should have realized things were different when you stopped spending Sunday's at my house and the "I'll text you when I get home" messages were taking longer to be sent,
as if every time you left the distance you had to travel was farther than before.
Don't tell me I never tried to save us.
Losing you was like listening to your favourite song backwards.
My mother always told me if I wanted something done right then I had to do it myself so I solemnly swear I will always be the one to break my own heart.
I am not sorry that my words always cut you deeper than anything you ever put against your skin.
I am not sorry I forgot you were human and treated you more like a sculpture than a heartbeat.
I am not sorry I made it impossible for you to ever really leave.
I keep trying to tell you that if things were easy
it wouldn't matter how it ends.
But all you can anticipate is it ending
and sometimes I wonder if you only stayed around to watch me try and pick up all the pieces by myself.