Odd, how fast it happens. An hour ago you felt like a man on a mission from god. Then, it strikes like lightning from an impossibly cloudless sky and your heart explodes into a confetti puff of darkness. Suddenly you feel like a bleached out pile of cat **** in the rain. "Good days and bad days and going half mad days." It never lasts, but that doesn't make it any less real. Attachment breeds suffering. Let it go and it will, until your next turn at bat. Till then the sun will shine down on the nothing new world again for a little while. Enjoy the warmth while it lasts. ~mce