I rather that my heart hurt and bleed and know your sufferings. Then to go around , living in a prison that I am unaware about. For I would rather live life revealing the Christ within me here. So that others too, shall find him here before its too late to see. For my pain and suffering , reveal my wounds here on the earth. His Spirit keeping me moving forward, overcoming things here. Reveal him living in me , healing me, blessing me as well here. For as I am a servant of the Most High God, the only true God. I rather suffer in this short life , and live abundantly later on. Then to live abundantly here in this short life and suffer the rest of eternality.