I know you're not good for me, yet  the tears, the pain fades from my     memory. Being replaced with images of the past, i notice how much i miss your laugh. I'll remember your laugh as sweet, but then realize i could never compete, with your past and your pain that lies, competing with someone you could never say goodbye to. Anxiety got the best of you, your mind spiraling out of control but it was my heart that took the toll. I tell myself I'm alright, but seconds later fighting off tears with all my might. One slips through then i can't control it, my heart feels the pain that i refuse to admit. You're back home now, happy as can be. While I'm still here wishing you were with me.