finally understanding the science of freedom—loving mad, thoughts running in firework circles, chasing horizons, befriending the alone, choosing the way you die—I stopped staring at ratios & coercing them into gold; alchemy is dead, and art is not a numbers game ((division is a terrible skill for writers to have))— expression is not mathematical, and my words are not for calculating eyes to evaluate; follow a formula for desired results—my breath cannot be defined.