i stay awake all night and
through most of the daylight
i have been losing track of time
and i don't care
this is how i like it
i don't ever want to
feel too late again
i never want to look at the clock
when it says 11:12,
i want to stop hearing
"did you see that shooting star?"
when i missed it
i want to bury
every single "almost"
with every single suicide letter
that i just put away when i couldn't seem to
bleed enough
almost, almost
i could've been something
i don't want
to think about it