The sloppy rain slips and slides down the fogged-up windows, and this lets me know that I am not as small as I think I am. In a city of three million plus, I feel like the soul of a nation, even though I'm just a twenty-one year-old piece of plastic, drinking a hipster beer.
The waitress has frizzy hair and oily skin. She's holding in late-night infomercials and missed ballet recitals, behind her words. She looks at my luggage and asks where I came from or where I'm going, and I tell her that the fun thing is that I have no idea where I'm going -- and that I still haven't decided where I've came from.
This city allows new-found anonymity, and I want that to be my cause. With each passing glance, I know they don't see me, and, to me, that's the slumber-kissed throat-slit I've always dreamt of...
...the streets play music that I only hear -- and I know that's not fair, but I don't care.
And the homeless represent the bowels of the city. And the businessmen are the ghost-filled engine. And the middle class is the defense-mechanism I always wanted for Christmas. And I am the empty delusion, desperately seeking a new pollution.