Even were he to explain, he’d much rather show to you his scars. He bears them like medals now, knowing well they are made of clad, like nickels, like cheap bullets.
If he could, he’d chuck all of them into the deep, the sparkle, of a wishing well. He knows that these scars have not only unsown himself, but made trenches between him and possibilities of love.
If he could, he’d place each scar into the chamber of a rifle, aim the .22 he never owned at a flock of starlings. He might miss every time, but at least the ravens would scatter.
He knows what he’d wish for, were each scar dropped, at 5 cents a wish. He has enough of them so that they jangle on him when you embrace. If he could, he’d stop collecting them, and wish them away
on you. He’d put away the rifle. His carving of a smile would fade into a grin. You had always been the loveliness of a needle, of thread and steady hands.