eating me from the inside out from the outside not wanting to look in deep breath, insides get a bit more tense one of these days, your heart is going to break it's bound to happen, you've fried your brain your heart doesn't beat like everyone else's and your skin is purple why am I always sick?
mood changing like the tides, unpredictable, no moon inside me when it rains it pours when it shines I can find the strength to smile in heaven everything is fine swallowing pills so I stay on cloud 9 forgot what it's like to have my feet on the ground breathing becomes hard to do, I have to remind myself how to holding back the fool
fear, paranoid I keep seeing things that aren't really there pour it up so the whole room slurs it's words when it talks everyone's looking at me and I don't even know who I am a second passes and I'm sure I found something inside me that is stable but just like my heartbeat, I'm irregular I forget to hold back the fool sometimes blindfolded by the mental illnesses hiding inside my brain a tangled mess of insanity
I don't sleep anymore I can't stop coughing up black phlegm and old memories faces that have changed memories that I've replaced with fantasy I get high again, I've always wanted to be a queen the walls are talking again am I awake? am I falling? am I alive? alone in the middle of the night questioning my existence, pondering space my mind is emptied and filled with questions nobody knows the answer to what am I doing here? is the world simply a figment of my imagination? the walls are talking again