I'm so done with everything
I just want to give up
I'm sick of being used
I'm sick of people making me feel like I'm not good enough
Then throw me away like I'm nothing
It's not a good feeling
It makes me feel like I'm a *******
The guy I slept with the first time ****** me mentally and physically
He used me to get what he needed at the time
Then he kicked me to the curb
I thought that he cared about me
And I thought this time would be different
We've had our past and we went our ways
But we found each other again
I wish we wouldn't have though
You ruined my self-esteem
You made me feel so worthless
When I had my pregnancy scare
Your words to me were
"We wouldn't be a thing, we'd just share a kid."
Those words were like daggers in my heart
I didn't know where to turn
I felt so lost and devastated
I know I'll be judged for what I'm about to say but...
I prayed and prayed that I wouldn't be pregnant
And if for some reason I became pregnant
I would "get it taken care of"
I'm not ready for a baby
I have my whole life ahead of me
I'm still in school
I just became a sophomore in college
I can't provide for a baby right now
And I want my baby to grow up with two parents
Who would love him or her
And being a single mom wouldn't provide that
Judge me, hate me, I don't give a **** anymore.