i know that empty space the hologram earth she inhabits in what could have been what never was a hollow heaviness of that excruciating longing a waterfall of curses falling from her lips and disappearing into that yawning chasm that consumes her until she is no more than a shell containing a love she can't let go of for without the full weight of her entirely spent body is the only force which keeps her yearning pinned to the ground stationary real a love she can reach out and touch and fuse with it until it is impossible to disentangle her very being from a made-up idealized love that somewhere in her mind burns brightly and casts dancing shadows on the walls of her minds scenes of his closeness the feeling of his palm cupping her face melting
and it is more than that warmth that gushes forth from her chest as he holds her she's bleeding on his shirt and she imagines her red blood cells setting into the fabric the stain of her existence to be carried forever on his lapel
how she heard the people sing but could they have known that this entire business the fighting and revolution had nothing to do with politics or some misplaced surge for justice the fight was for her freedom to solidify her shadow world where she belonged to him
and somehow as she pulls her last breaths and watches her blood stain spread and spread she wished to consumed him his kiss on her face lingered forever her final memory the epitaph on a tomb that represented the ultimate freedom.