I can sit enveloped in this womb of a chair smoking knowing that you would like the knowledge that I am watching you asleep in our bed, watching the pulsing sway of your form as each gentle breathe you draw stirs and courses from lung to heart to body, that hallowed body whose skin I have touched in minutes gone, whose lines I have traced idly with my fingers, whose curves I have known and mysteries I have explored (in time both short and immensely vast and always, always the finding of more).
Behind you sleeping, through the window lies the city eager and waiting twenty floors below vibrant in the blanketing night, a thousand million countless points of splendid light flickering away that hold a thousand million countless lives: one of whom I know one is a man who watches the sleeping shape of the woman he adores on a bed disheveled and beautiful, behind her the city through the window, huge and always the city we share (as we share this moment), vibrant in the blanketing night, a thousand million countless points of splendid light flickering away that hold a thousand million countless lives: one of which is mine staring back at his- the whole world between us: but joined because we love.
Should we pass each other on the street (he and I) we could never know by looking that we shared such colossal galaxies, nor that when I look into your eyes (or he in hers) we find our better angels. But I like to think that he could smell/hear/see your body with mine (separated by distance but together) and smile, and he and I could know that in our hands (his and hers) (yours and mine) we all hold a thousand million countless points of light.
I can sit smoking knowing that you would like the knowledge that I am watching you, that it is the delicate majesty of you sleeping framed against the hard eternity of the city in the window that makes me feel alive; one amongst a thousand million countless points of crisp and loving light.