I wouldn’t go as far as saying
I pretended to be in love with you
but truly
I never loved you
like you thought I did
And at 3 am
when we were on the phone
half delirious from lack of sleep
and you would mumble that you loved me
And I would say it back
not because I really loved you but
because it was out of habit
I didn’t want to say it
but you said it so
I said it back
I think that’s the wrong way to love
And all I’m saying is
I wish I could have loved you
the way you loved me