So torn within myself. A battle I'm unfit to fight in let alone win. On the brink of tears at every moment of the day. Jealousy, anxiety, nill confidence and self esteem. Constantly apologising to those around me. How could I have been so foolish and naive to try and bury these burdens praying they wouldn't catch up with me. I don't want pity or to be cradled and told "everything will be alright." All I want is to feel I'm in control of my emotions and begin to feel less alien in my own skin.