The truth is.
I'm not even sure
if I love you
or just long for you.

If what I'm feeling.
is called
love
or pain.

Honestly,
when I think of you
my stomach
doesn't feel
a thousand butterflies
but
a thousand knives
piercing
into my soul.

I'm not sure
if I'm afraid of letting you go
because I love you more than anything.
or just because I don't know how to live
with all this pain.