I been there, I truly understand your pain and suffering. I use to believe why bother me no one understands my situation. I use to think that no one else could understand my sufferings. But there is at least one that understands our sufferings and pain. He went through his own suffering and pain as well on the cross. There is nothing that you could be going through right now. That e does not understand, he knows what you are feeling now. For only he can understand and heal you of your suffetings and pain. He loves you enough to have went through what you are going through now.