I don't want to know what this sad feeling is like anymore.

The significance of it taking over my life.

Does this mean anything at all?

This black hole caving in the pit of my stomach.

I can't be civil with myself.

I don't want to know what this sad feeling is like anymore.

I want to be more refined.

I want to be close to those who are apparently close to me.

I did everything for them but they feel nothing for me.

Reality is here and I don't want to face it.

I want to keep myself alive through my strengths.

But I don't know what they are.

I don't want to know what this sad feeling is like anymore.