First post
First time
****, remind me of my first time.
Every time I think life just feels like it ain't mine.

Slap myself in the face did I just make such a mistake?
I thought I loved him, it, or her...
STOP ME IN MY TRACKS
I am blindsided how is he, it, or she the main topic now?
I AM HURT I ADMIT.
I AM HURT GAD ******.
But, it feels like I still have feelings for him?
It cant be right because I hate him, her, it or it just hates me...
According to him.

Who does that anyway?
Appear out of no where just to make me feel like a no body
When I was someone to him at one point
Since then, I question my appearance, my motives, love, life
I question who I fell in love with and HOW?!
When he's so not worth it
How can you threaten me months after we haven't spoke?
Its not like I harass you or talk to you I simply ignore your presence.
Although it is so loud in even the quietest rooms
I fall into discomfort every time.

I cry, I cry even when I know you ain't ****.
I try, I try to hide the pain.
Separating, breaking up, or hating was the best thing to happen to me.
And the only pain I feel is making you my first.