i've been feeling, lately, like i can't write because the weight of your goodbye has fogged up my head far worse than it was when i used to lay in my old driveway and imagine the weight of your truck against my chest. typed out easily with a smiley face at the end of it just to tell me that your departure from me does not weigh heavy on your heart. you didn't mean it that way.
the thing is, i wrote about you day and night the last time you clouded up my mind but i still choked on the air you always made so heavy around me the next time we spoke, so maybe this won't do my any good.
i try to act like it doesn't hurt anymore but it does. i think you really cared.