God was supposed to be my mom
Wiping away the tears
When I didn’t want to breathe anymore

God was supposed to be my dad
Hugging me
When I didn’t know how
To handle my feelings

God was supposed to be my teacher
Encouraging me
Influencing me
When I couldn’t get my life together

God was supposed to be me
Living life to the fullest
And not being afraid.

God is none of these things.
I have yet to find out who God is.
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