Look  I miss you a ton
Although it seems like we just begun
This affair will be my undone

It's not just the ***,  which is on a level all its own
Makes me feel like I'm King on a throne

But I miss the 'you get me' part even more

The thing is I ain't strong enough or whatever to handle the deception .
Eventually we'll have  to deal with the pain of rejection

We are playing with nuclear bombs with the potential to destabilize a lot of lives
I don't think I'd survive

The guilt is eating me alive