one You were my very first kiss, But it became obvious that you loved roly polies more than me It was never meant to work between us.
two* Behind a tree at recess, I showed you mine and you showed me yours We were too young to feel ashamed of our bodies We were pirates exploring a brand new sea At 6 years old, every touch was a good touch
three You told me I was funnier than all the boys in the class You told me you hated going to mass on Monday mornings, too. You pushed me on the swings and didn’t ask me to push you back. I don’t even remember your name.
four Thank you for trading me your favorite charzard pokemon card Thank you for being my friend Thank you for telling me you would miss me when I moved away I was lonely before I met you And after I unmet you
five When it turned out that you were gay I thought to myself ‘this’ll be a funny story to tell my grandkids one day’
six When YOU turned out to be gay I decided maybe it would be better not to tell the grandkids
seven Once we held hands in a middle school play 9 years later I watched you give your second interview on CNN So, I’m not saying that I am responsible for your amazing success, But I’m certainly not saying that either.
eight After our first date, I called and told you That I missed you already. I still do.
nine Maybe one day I’ll forget the exact shade of your eyes And the number of freckles sprinkled across your nose
I think of you more often than I don’t.
ten Once we talked on the phone for 7 hours, And when I told you I needed to go to sleep You asked me to keep the phone on and lay it beside my pillow You told me that you wanted my voice to be The first thing you heard in the morning. You said that you missed me terribly when I was gone. But you were a really terrible kisser.
eleven When I think of you I think of broken glass.
twelve You asked me to call you ‘Peachtree Jackson’ The first time I met you. And that’s when I knew I’d love you forever.
thirteen I knew it was going to hurt when it started. I was too young, and you were too old. You were the first person to tell me that I had a beautiful mind You kissed me greedily like a diver coming up for air You are the reason I love poetry. You are the reason I hated high school. Your son is the spitting image of you, And I hope that your wife tells you she loves you every single day.
fourteen We melted into each other like honey into warm tea Like new snowflakes into an open palm We swapped virginities like baseball cards You pressed your hands into my body like wet cement Now when I undress for another man I worry he can still see your finger prints I thought of you like a small child Who needed a hand to hold when he crossed the street You treated me like your favorite shirt Hung me carefully in the back of your closet Kept me in your darkest room Washed me out too many times and refused to throw me away When you noticed the seams start to rip You sewed your name into all my underwear So everyone would know who they belonged to
fifteen I know that you love me But in a practical way. I really, really did want it to be you.
sixteen Your laugh still makes me feel like candlelight Your sleepy morning smile is a lit up Christmas tree Your kiss is a comfy sweater fresh from the drier You were the first person I was afraid to sleep next to Not because I thought you would leave in the night, But because I was afraid to wake up ungracefully beside you I wish you had told me the last time I laid myself next to you Would be the last I would have hummed the sound of your breathing Committed each rise and fall of your chest to memory I would have whispered my love into your ear Instead of into your pillow You are still my favorite part of the last 4 years And I am the thrift shop you visit To remind yourself what becomes of the people you love When you’re gone
seventeen This is for the love I have not yet met I don’t know when we’ll meet or where we’ll meet. It might be tomorrow or it might be 10 years from now. Right at this moment you might be standing 3,000 miles away from me Or you might be shopping for groceries at the supermarket down the street Wherever you are, I hope that you are thinking of me, too. But take your time, love. You don’t need to feel rushed. Whenever you’re ready to find me I’ll be here. Ready to add your name to my list.