i try so hard to be normal. to be like all the other girls. to follow your rules and guidelines. i follow every step you take, never going out of line. i fit in your puzzle when i do what you want. and THAT is all ive ever wanted. to belong somewhere, even if i have to fight for it. even if i have to do things i don't want to for you to notice me. for you to care for me like i care for you. i am dying here beside you, while you hold her. i am crying beneath you while i pave your path so you don't fall. but i am done with being a door mat. i am through with you. but its all a bit too late because you've been done with me this whole time. who was i kidding? you didn't want me. but i need you. i need you to want me. to love me. to hold me. to touch me. to smile that smile that makes me crazy. i love who we could be, but we will never know what that is.