I can't be that drunk
I'm walking in circles
Chasing shadows in the fog
Cold asphalt nipping at numb toes
Where are you!?
**** it answer me
But who's to answer
When it's nobody I'm looking for
She's gone and so are you
Just shadows in the fog of my abyssal heart
Numbness spreading like a virus
From toes to mouth
No longer able to walk
Just mumbling mumbo jumbo
What the **** happened to me
I used to be a human
Capable of writing every emotion I felt
Acknowledged those of others
Now I'm getting drunk
Playing hide and go seek with imaginary shadows in the fog
This isnt me
This isn't you
It's like an echo
I no longer know if its mocking me
Or just agreeing with it
One step closer
Maybe I'll find a face I recognize here
Sirens blare
Noise complaint
I'm resisting arrest
Screaming you have to find it
Puzzled faces plastered on the officers
Flashlights and barks
They think I'm talking about you
They think you're still alive
We both know where you are
I'm just too drunk to recall
If I was the murderer or the victim
Did I sacrifice you to be a god
Was it me I fed to those heathens
Where are you!?
When I need you most
When you're all that I want
When everything is falling apart
You could help me hold up a dam
I don't need to be flooded by these emotions
I'm scared I'll never wake
Just lost to the endlessness of it all
It's too much for me to take it
Where are you!?
It's getting dark
Please hurry
This fog is too thick
I'm sorry
I failed you
As the cops haul me away
I know I'll never find you
I'll never know where you went
But at least I got to see the outline of what you used to be