I’ve felt your hand in mine- despite me trying to fill them with his. 

My legs could stay wrapped around your hips for as long as I could hold on. 

You said you liked the way my body was shaped 
and the way I scared you in all the best ways.
You thought I was going to save you, I know that’s what you were thinking.
Stars are stars and I am only made of them.
The truth is -my body is a folded paper marked with lists that I never got around to doing. 

And I’m ******* terrified to grow.

I thought you were going to save me.
I know that’s what I thought. 

Gates don’t JUST fall, 
Someone has to lower them and bodies don’t just join, the magic has to be there.

And I didn’t tell you I cared to watch you grow in the opposite direction. 
And I didn’t ask you for you to do any of this.

I believed in you the way you’ve always wanted someone to. 

Heart in hands and blindly led.

I loved someone who didn’t love me. I don’t know how to turn that into poetry.