I want to find a river,
so I can step my feet into the cold water,
and wash away all my memories.
So I can rinse my hands of everything I feel,
Until there is nothing left.

I need the water to soak my chest,
so every piece of me flows away to somewhere else.
I need to completely submerge my head,
until all my thoughts drown,
and dissipate into the depths.

I'm going to find a river,
so it can replace my skin and bones with black water.
So I can float in the dark abyss,
soundlessly
until every part of me is gone,
and I am just another ripple in the current.