By book-ends my stomach is churning, I'm cantankerous and stand-offish in spurts, barely there in others. I could not dig up where my head was if I had to. I do not have to. There are some things in my life that lead themselves to failure. I have dropped instinct, instead adopting pattern, a means of coping with the endlessness of life in a globalized world. This is not lament. I could part with objectivity, happy to expire for a scrap of extra sentience. Please, before my words become manners and manners become holes full of dirt, pardon me for the mess. I only had so much time after all.